Hello I am Steffie or Stephanie, Steven if were being truthful. I guess I am here because I am...or have been in denial about this. For the longest time I read stories, or get captions, or join chat rooms. I grew up strict fundamental baptist, and have also been in the military between those things i just...struggle to be honest with what I want. I am the person at a party who won't drink because others to have fun and be safe. I am the type of person who can be struggling with money problems and would still help someone else out. I am not saying those for praise, I am saying that because who I wanted to be is always just...shut down because that's not who everyone else needed.
I'm married, which is great I love her with every ounce of my being and she and I met, became friends and had similar loves in both gaming, views on the world and most importantly each other. Initially she was very supportive of this side of myself, but were both switches in submission versus dominant, and I dunno were both very very submissive as it turns out. So I act more dominant, I want to make her happy and I have talked to her, it's just what was once open support is now reserved hesitation. She used to volunteer to have a dress up day, now she's been hesitant to even bring one up. Her reasons are what if we have a kid, or what if someone found it out, or how could that effect your job. Also my age is coming up since I'm 30 now. So my anchor has been unmoored.
I'm not trying to say life sucks, just I can't seem to get ahead, and this side of me seems to get relegated to the back side. So I'm here and I'm not hiding it from her, honestly she just seems glad I'm not pestering her. So I don't know how much I'll post pictures or story wise. I just want to talk to others so that this side doesn't fade away.
Sorry for the heavy introduction, just had to get it off my chest.